In 2 hours (okay I am rounding), I will be 45 years old. Now if you talk to my mother, she will tell you I am not officially 45 until 6:45 p.m. on September 1st.
Does 45 bother me? No, it doesn't. I'm ready for it. I'm ready for the year to come to be all that God has planned for me, no matter what that may be.
He has truly blessed me with an amazing husband and two incredible kids - people who I love but fail time and time again because I try to do things myself and not turn them or circumstances over to God. What I long to do is be a better helper to my husband and mother to my kids this year. Perfect? Not by a long shot, but all that God intends me to be for them.
I have some amazing friends - some old (times wise) and some new. God has given me some honest friendships where we are able to sharpen each other and for that I am incredibly thankful.
My family (Papp & Wessel) lives far away in miles and yet I know that they love and pray for me, Dave, Emily and Matt and for that I will always be grateful. I'm thankful my parents had me (one of 4 in 5 years), thankful for my upbringing and how it has molded me to be the person I am today, thankful for the Wessel's for having Dave and that my dad and his dad had the crazy idea to introduce us which in turn will be 17 years of marriage October 6th.
I'm thankful to my God! Someone I have "known" for a long time but am only really feeling like I am coming to know personally more and more each day. For His love, His grace, the salvation He has gifted me, the plans He has for me and will bring me through.
I have to say that most years my wish list for the year to come include "me" motivated things, like looking the best I can for my age, being more committed to things I fall short on, being the best mom and wife I can be. What I want for this year is to know what God wants for me, for my family and to act on it. I want to be bold in my faith and show Christ to those around me so they can know Him too in an incredible personal relationship - not one that will keep struggles, pain and hardships away but that will allow God to be seen in the reactions and obedience that stands firm in the midst of the good and the bad.
Is my goal lofty? No, not if I give it over to God, the one who loves me. Will I struggle? Yes, because I have that human nature. But that is not an excuse, obedience is a choice and "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me".
What I ask for the year to come is prayer. Prayer to stay in communion with God and find blessing in the circumstances that He brings my way and to my family.
45 I am ready!! I think I've been saying I am 45 for the last 6 months so it isn't much of a change. :)
















